My Mentor

I've learn to dance like they do
I never thought it'd be easy
but practice makes it perfect
or maybe He's just the best
he teaches me everything
he's like my mentor too
I love him for his patience
and when we crack up laughing
It's a secret between U and I
how we always laugh for random reasons
but maybe it's just us
the bond we've created for eachother
It's not for other's to break
I promise i will practice
so i can be #1
the #1 of ur student
Oh and maybe your #1 love too!

"She" and "I"

Last Night, "she" remember you
She stared at the ceiling
knew you wouldn't come back
She knew there were no Happy endings
This was reality nothing will fix it
She went to sleep ignoring the pain...
last night I couldn't sleep
I whimpered, and acted pathetic
I kept thinking everyday you'd come back
I remembered crying today
They thought it was a fight between Jacky and "I"
I knew they were all wrong
the sky looked too happy
it was wrong.... and i felt alone
She knew it was all just reality
I knew i couldn't hold back the tears
She knew Jacky only made me feel more miserable
I knew i loved him, and i didn't care
She knew i was too emotional
I knew it too
I knew I'd never break up with Jacky
She was just plain solid
I didn't like her...
She was me
I was her...

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im a bad poet :D

I never thought guys ever tried
it changed when i saw your eager face
I know you are our loyal friend
but guys you just never get it
you guys try so hard
but u guys give in
it always breaks our heart
but we know it's sometimes better
it's always better to keep you clueless
for we are scared to hurt u

I'm no good at poetry, im not good at keeping this silent, but i will not tell it straight foward to everyone, i hope he will get my hint and my friend will not kill me for hinting =\, but it's a poetry about what i think, it's sad to look at it, so here i go:

I never believed in Asian Parodies
i thought they were all fake
but now i see what your in
it hurts to see u sad
Your very lies are not so hard
i can see through em like fog
you are my bestest mime
you hide them all so well
I'm not surprised he cant tell
I just wished this wasn't true
So i dont see you blue





i sort of got it on my 3rd try :\ im so bad at poetry Lol

Same thought

It's the sunrise of saturday, im getting ready to start out my weekend volenteering, and helping people, burrr it's kind of cold x] but it makes me feel happy to help people out, and see them happy...it's just kind of awkward when some of them cry on ur shoulder (psttt.. that kind of freaks me out sometimes still 0-0 ) We're gonna get there at 7:30, but i woke up at 6 thinking of JAcky, he's going to reno today, i keep thinking of what happened to Johnny, i couldnt sleep, i didnt even have the enthusiasm to read. I sat in bed and thought for 30 mins then decided to open the computer, pick up the phone and call Jacky, i think i woke up someone in my family along that process, yeah i woke up jacky before he woke up by himself :] He already left at 07:01:42 A.M im starting to miss him Lol... He'll be back by night, im sure of it. Blueberry Bagel for breakfast :D Fuel up for uhm *counts my fingers* 3... uhm 4, 3 and a half hour of Lifting boxes and 0-0 idk? Going hyper around jess, like the little wild sister im supposed to be :3 My sis doesnt want to wake up for volunteering Lol. Nom nom Nom Blueberry Bagels ^^ Crunchy on the outside, soft in the inside, full of the taste of blueberries, Yum :] Haha i like my breakfast 0-0I wonder where jacky is right now =\ *mopes around wondering and worrying.... Haha time to go!I'll make sure to hold the locket close to my heart ;], oh i hate using a tablet as a mouse my mouse keeps dying every sec or so -.- I'll stop being random now, gots to go, Bye ;]


11:55 Am: Well k im back, it was the same ;] except i saw a roadkilled black cat with it's headsqaushes, and it's uhmmmmm brains, flesh, it also had a very blank snarl :( It was very sad and a very troubling site, my sis freaked out -.- and almost ditched me 0-0 I got in and out ;] im very full now 0-0 that was fun...

Note to self

I feel too sad to even want to do my fav hobbies, Note to self: your not aloud to become depressed again,Bad Suzy! Bad


*sigh* ),:

I Hate Having feelings now.....

The banner

I feel excluded from the group... a lot, maybe just cuz they dont consider me in the "group" i just wished i was... anyways i did the banner.... IT looks kind of gurly x] but they picked the colors